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1. The World Changes, and We With It

   02/17/09 09:14:14 | 1 post your 2 cents worth here:

   I am taking an extended leave from the Community. I've had a lot of mail about this, which is natural since I have so recently posted my intentions to not be around.
   
   The OVC has changed over the years I've been a participant. When I first got online in 1993 we all met in IRC, in places like Parents Kitchen on StarChat Polaris. Then came disc servers and egroups and by '98 i was already involved in some of the first egroups to hit the net, places like ONE, which is now yahoo groups. I remember when the first real modern message boards were created with more functionality and in 2002 i created Smoke and Mirrors.
   
   Back then it was all about helping people and each other. It was an all for one and one for all thing where we got and recieved support, helped people like ourselves to learn to look after themselves, to feed, to thrive, to deal with who we are.
   
   Its all changed. Now days i hear more about politics.. who is and who is NOT a Vampire, how to police the community, who's in and who's out and who's popular and who's not. Its become every Vampire for themselves. That was never what it was about.
   
   I miss the days when the community was simpler. When it was OK to help others and one didn't get slammed for "handing out info that makes sheep out of everyone, because they just follow blindly" it was OK to help others learn to deal with being Vampire and learn the best ways thrive. Now its almost considered wrong to want to help, and i don't understand the reasons.
   
   I've been in the community for a long time. After a while it twists you.
   I am tired of covering my ass and watching my back because what i do doens't suit someone elses politics. Im tired of people who make what i post on my blogs about them instead of about ME, and MY world, which to me is what a blog is all about.
   I don't like that I've changed from being a loving, caring Den Mother to an angry person who has constant panic attacks wondering who will be the next political opponent and who is going to back stab me next because they don't like what i do, or what i write or what i say.
   
   I need a break. Having given a good portion of more than a decade to the community I'm taking my life back for a while.
   I need time to rest, regroup, rethink and ACTUALLY be with the people i love. My mate, my family, my coven.
   
   It is my hope in time that the VC will draw back from the media obsession it is currently infatuated with.
   Its my hope that eventually the desire to help each other will someday overthrow the desire to be politically correct, or politically charged in any way for that matter.
   
   For now i'm going to rewrite my book and get it back on the market. I'm going to hang with my friends around my library in Second Life and i'm going to play with my kids in Warcraft. I'm going to heal. I'm going to grow again, and i'm going to be happy. Eventually the panic attacks will pass.
   
   If anyone REALLY needs me or really needs help for Vampire issues my board, Smoke and Mirrors is still at:
   http://smokeandmirrors34981.yuku.com/ and support is offered at the Vampiric Library in Second Life at Lunitarium. Drop in for tea.
   
   I love you all. I just won't be around much now that i'm done shutting down the majority of the accounts i have around the community.
   
   I'll post here when my book is back on the market. I'll check around the accounts and the few places i still hold membership when i get a chance.
   I wish you ALL, friend and foe alike, the very best life has to offer.
   
   Stay Well
   Stay Fed
   Stay Together
   
   Luv CG.
   
   

   "After 86 years of perpetual motion, If he likes you he'll smile and say:
   Its been some of it magick, a lot of it tragic But i had a good life all the way"
   
   Jimmy Buffet

   
   

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2. Practical Vampirism has been temporarily pulled from print

   02/11/09 11:22:05 | 0 post your 2 cents worth here:

   Practical Vampirism for Modern Vampires HAS been Temporaily pulled from print
   Category: Writing and Poetry

   
   
   
   I should have the revised edition, sans Crazes contributions and with my new and revised articles added.
   
   I will then put the book back on the market as a Second / Revised Edition
   All the material can still be found on SangSpace and will eventually make it to my website.
   Its also posted on Smoke and Mirrors.
   
   Thank you ALL for your support.
   LadyCG.
   

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3. Smoke and Mirrors DARK has LEFT Dark Nations .

   02/10/09 08:18:10 | 0 post your 2 cents worth here:

   Smoke and Mirrors DARK has LEFT Dark Nations
   Category: News and Politics

   
   Due to my taking an extended leave of absence from the Vamp Community and the identity of the Dark Nations founder, We at S&M have left Dark Nations.
   
   There is little point in our group participating when the founder and i cannot coexist due to matters of a personal nature (see my other blogs) and he has no interest in Mediation, though that leaves me to wonder WHY DN has a list of mediators, an WHY Khans name is even ON it... when he is ANYTHING but diplomatic... I DID offer to have our dispute mediated.
   
   I WILL miss all of you in the other Embassies. I've enjoyed getting to know you.
   (I see most of you on other groups, so don't be a stranger!)
   
   Our Embassy has been deleted.
   
   
   

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4. ON Leave from OVC - first time since 1997

   02/09/09 12:09:29 | 0 post your 2 cents worth here:

   I'm sorry folks, but i won't be around for a while.
   Due to an unfortunate choice in people i trusted /loved I've decided to leave the OVC for a time, or at least cut back my participation to nil till i feel better.
   
   I know.. no one see's the stuff he writes to me in private, so there is no way for others to understand, and i'm tired of fighting.
   No one realizes what he's done to me. But i can say i'm not healing and the only way its going to happen, apparently is for me to just leave, since there are some places i can't block or ignore Khan.
   
   So i'm going. I'll be back, hopefully, when i've healed and when i've got my head back on straight if that ever happens. I've never had my head so well fucked before i honestly am not sure what to do with all this.
   
   If the situation is critical and you NEED to find me for advice or for .. i don't know - stuff just comes up sometimes... I can be reached by my email, or a PM here. Out of necessity i will be still be checking in ton Smoke and Mirrors once in a blue moon and i'm looking for staff to help in my absence.
   I will also be continuing my library and archive project on Second Life and I can be found on WOW. I'll try to check messages, but no promises.
   
   I've been dedicated body, heart and soul to the community for well over 12 years, online and longer offline.
   My real life Coven and Sanctuary will always be around and you're always invited to drop in if you're in or around Alberta Canada.
   I'm going to try to finish my 2nd book, something i've had no time for with allthe groups and communities i help out on.
   
   Please wish me well as i embark on a healing journey to spend time with my family and my mate, and take time to find myself again.
   There is a commercial running that says:
   
   "Sometimes to find yourself, you have to lose yourself, sometimes you gotta go walkabout"
   
   I TRULY LOVE YOU ALL!
   Stay well...
   Stay fed...
   Stay together.
   CG.

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5. A Visit From St Nick - Vampire Style by Lady CG

   12/19/08 12:33:54 | 0 post your 2 cents worth here:

   Twas the night before Solstice, and all through the castle
   Everybody was stirring, Lord, Lady and vassal
   The stockings that hung by the chimney with care,
   Were all made of fishnet, like St. Nick would care...
   The Vamplings were practising throwing psi balls
   At Ma's plasma light at the end of the hall;
   Igor was looking for someone to bludgeon,
   Ma and Pa played at BDSM in the dungeon,
   When out in the courtyard arose such a clatter,
   I sprang from the bed to see what was the matter.
   
   
   Away to the window I flew like a flash,
   Tore open the shutters and threw up the sash.
   (then landed in a snowbank right on my ass!)
   The moon on the breast of the new-fallen snow
   Made me put on dark glasses to lessen the glow,
   When, what to my wondering eyes should appear,
   But a sleigh, pulled by bats and not tiny reindeer,
   With a little old driver, so lively and quick,
   Dressed in black fur, A GOTHIC St. Nick!
   More rapid than eagles his coursers they came,
   And he whistled, and shouted, and called them by name;
   
   Now, Bella! now, Blackie! Now, Akasha and Raven!
   On, Hapsburg! On Vlad! On, Claudia, Archangel !
   To the top of the turret! to the top of the wall!
   Now dash away! dash away! dash away all!
   
   As dry leaves that before the wild hurricane fly,
   When they meet with an obstacle, mount to the sky,
   So up to the castle-top the bats they all flew,
   With the sleigh full of black metal, and St. Nicholas too.
   And then, on the roof we all heard an odd thing
   The flutter and flapping of each little wing.
   As I picked myself up, and was turning around,
   Down the chimney St. Nicholas came with a bound.
   
   He was dressed in black fur, from his head to his foot,
   And his clothes were all tarnished with ashes and soot;
   A bundle of goodies he had thrown on the floor,
   He went straight to the absinth left by the back door.
   His eyes -- how they twinkled! His dimples how merry!
   His cheeks were like roses, his nose like a cherry!
   All in all dear Santa was quite a small wreck
   But i hear too much absinth can have that effect
   
   
   The stump of a pipe he held tight in his teeth,
   And the smoke it encircled his head like a wreath;
   Mind if i Smoke? He asked with great pain.
   I'm damned sick of the Elves STOP SMOKING Campaign.
   So he lit up his pipe, with an odd little smell
   Smoke and Fire he looked like the Santa from Hell
   A wink of his eye and a twist of his head,
   Soon gave us to know Santa likes the undead;
   
   
   He slurred a few words, but went straight to his work,
   And filled all the fishnets; then turned with a jerk,
   (we never did learn who this jerk fellow was...)
   And laying his finger aside of his nose,
   And giving a nod, up the chimney he rose;
   He sprang to his sleigh, to his Bats gave a whistle,
   And away they all flew like the down of a thistle.
   But I heard him exclaim, ere he drove out of sight,
   'Darkest Christmas to all, on this longest of nights!'
   
   I'm off this evening for 16 days of holidays
   Thank you ALL for being my friends
   and I wish EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU
   the Most Blessed Yule and the Best the New Year has to offer
   
   Much Love from Lady CG
   xoxoxoxo

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6. Resounding Success~!

   11/10/07 07:27:24 | 0 post your 2 cents worth here:

   I did it! I pulled off the biggest coup of my career.
   A little over 10 days ago I was approached by a regional Tourism oversite ltd to take on the organization of a Special General Meeting of their Shareholders, who are comprised of over 46 municipalities (with 3 representatives each, mostly made up of elected officials) in central and southern Alberta. I had 10 days to pull it off.
   
   The result was one of the best attended shareholder meetings they'd ever had.
   
   I have been offered new positions, congratulated by the Minister of Tourism, as well as the President and Executive Director, and made a LOT of new friends! (not to mention some astoundingly good references!)
   
   While everyone was wondering where I was missing to, I was making a career highlight.
   I'm really really excited! I feel really really appreciated!
   
   I was gifted with a great new book, signed by the Author, who was the keynote speaker at the meeting, and which I fully intend to read: Teaching an Anthill to Fetch : Developing Cooperative Intelligence at Work. by Stephen James Joyce. (who, by the way, is an AMAZING speaker, if you get a chance to hear him)
   

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   In more personal matters: The new furnace is IN and WORKING. The new Tagotti Flash Hot water system is IN and WORKING. My bathroom is now over TWICE as big as it used to be, and my next job is to finish making the house presentable again until we are ready to commence the next phase of reno.
   
   Thank you to whichever God or Goddess has been watching over me recently.
   My life is on a roll and I am GRATEFUL. Its nice when life tosses you a break.
   This last month and a half have been a lot of work, filled with some amazing projects, all of which I have completely aced. Does it get any better than that? I don't know. But I'm excited about my life again and that means a lot.
   
   Stay Warm.
   Stay Fed.
   Stay TOGETHER!
   
   Luv CG.
   

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